sorry everyone,

i'm switching to tumblr. i like it much more.

knowmyheart.tumblr.com

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nelson mandela.

"our greatest fear is not that we are inadequate, but that we are powerful beyond measure. it is our light, not our darkness, that frightens us. we ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, handsome, talented and fabulous? actually, who are you not to be? you are a child of God. your playing small does not serve the world. there is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. we were born to make manifest the glory of god within us. it is not just in some; it is in everyone. and, as we let our own light shine, we consciously give other people permission to do the same. as we are liberated from our fear, our presence automatically liberates others."

in case you were wondering,

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most of the time.

tis true. but sad.

seriously though.

i made the musical! (:

i am in 'once upon a mattress.' so stoked.

seventeen!

so today was just an ordinary day at school (except that becca brought be flowers) and then i had musical auditions. that stressed me out, auditions make me crazy. so here i am thinking that i was going to go home and sit around and do nothing on my birthday...and becca came over and we ate chicken tacos that my wonder mommy made...and someone knocks at the door. i wcas sorta freaked out because if people knock, i usually know why and who they are. well, i answered the door, and there was favot, ms. kerri, alecks, brandon, and cody. ahh. i just screamed from excitement. it was great. i'm so glad that i got to spend my birthday with people i love after a sorta stressful day. (:
thank you everyone <3

exactly.

things that are stupid:

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happy birthday mom!

yeah, it's the new year, but personally, i'm more concerned about it being my mom's birthday. here's a little something i wrote about her in my journal a few days ago:

"I do have to say that my mom is just a wonderful woman of god that speaks wisdom(most of the time, haha). i admire how she just hears god speaks and listens so obediently. she is just a beautiful woman of god who i look up to and admire so much. if it wasn't for her strength, i don't know what i would do. really. she always makes me laugh and knows what to do to cheer me up. she makes a mean chicken noodle soup...or a mean maker of any food she attempts to make. she can always calm me down just by playing with my hair or just hugging me at the exact moment that i need her to, without me telling her. in everything going on in my life, my mom has been a positive influence throughout the whole thing. i love my mom. i can say that i am proud to me my mother's daughter."

(:

anxiety.

so, many of you know this about me, but it's extremely hard for me to trust. it's hard for me to trust people, especially after being replaced time and time again in my life. people leave after i begin to trust them.

and yes, it's hard for me to trust god. i just have a hard time giving him EVERYTHING in my life. i can give him some areas of my life, but it's hard for me to just give him all of it. it's always been like this. my experiences with trusting people run into my experience with trusting god. and i hate it, i do. it's just hard for me to not let it effect my relationship with god, especially with everything that had been going on lately.

but the other day, i didn't know what to read in my bible(that seems to be a dilemma with me - what to read). my mom told me to just read what each book was about and then go from there. and for some reason, i read 1 peter. and it was exactly what i needed.

1 peter 2:23-35 "when they hurled their insults at him, he did not retaliate; when he suffered, he made no threats. instead, he entrusted himself to him who judges justly. he himself bore our sins in his body on the tree, so that we might die to sins and live for righteousness; by his wounds you have been healed. for you were like sheep going astray, but now you have returned to the shepherd and overseer of your souls."

even though i have a lot going on in my life and a lot of things are being thrown at me, i have to entrust myself to him who judges justly. jesus did. and i want to be more like jesus, right? right.

and here is the one that spoke to me the most:
"cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you." 1 peter 5:7.

i can't tell you how many times i have heard that verse, but this time, it really just hit me. like, one of those "what are you doing? HE CARES. he's not going to let you go." cast all anxiety. not just some. all. let go.

1 peter 1:7-9 "these have come so that your faith—of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire—may be proved genuine and may result in praise, glory and honor when jesus christ is revealed. though you have not seen him, you love him; and even though you do not see him now, you believe in him and are filled with an inexpressible and glorious joy, for you are receiving the goal of your faith, the salvation of your souls."

so here i am. praying that i will be able to trust god with everything, and not just some things. he cares, he's not going to leave like everyone else - because he's GOD.
well, that's it.

fix my eyes.

this is cute.

hm.

i kinda want to switch to tumblr instead of using this.
i just don't feel like switching blogs, again.

merry christmas!

abraham lincoln.

"things may come to those who wait...but only the things left by those who hustle.”

“if you look for the bad in people expecting to find it, you surely will.”