Wednesday, May 13, 2009

move forward.

i now remember why i never liked joints didnt like it. and of course, today is all rain. and the past few days the weather has been going bonkers so my joints dont like that either. and today was so exception. one knee cant bend all of the way without hurting and the other cant fully extend all of the way. its very nice. i was in meijer today and an older lady(she was about seventy) was walking just fine and she passes me as i'm limping. i really hope my arthritis isn't coming back ): but i really want to keep going, but its hard not being able to do anything, even if its something like walking.

also, i am realizing how few friends i have. i have been talking to two. count 'em- one, two. yeah. one friend is "upset" with me, causing another friend to not talk with me. which is just awesome. i might be hanging out with someone i have known since first grade...but thats only if my body will let it be so.

its extremely hard to even try and stay optimistic when i feel like a lonely(socially), old(physically) lady.

jeremiah 29:11 - "for i know the plans i have you for," declares the lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.


Stacy said...

Phyllis, I always say better to have a few GREAT friends, than a bunch of so-so's.

You are an amazingly mature, motivated, intelligent, beautiful young woman! I am proud of you FOR your mom! I'm so sorry that you feel lonely, I know exactly what that feels like and it's no fun. Please know that I will be praying that God brings good friends into your life, people who appreciate you and treat you well. You deserve it!

Margie said...

I'm praying too! I've been praying... it keeps me from slapping someone! Sometimes I think all my fruit of the spirit might fall off my tree (my new favorite saying!) when you are hurt!